Monday, August 15, 2011
I broke up with my girlfriend but not sure how to move on?
It was a very toxic relationship, we argued at least 5 out of the 7 days of the week. We had been together for 1 year, 8 months and 2 days the day i decided it was over for good. I had been wanting to break up with her for a while because i got really tired of her ways, part of the things she did were not all her fault, but i still did not want to be involved in it. When we argued, 1st of all it was ALWAYS over something of minor importance, she always question my loyalty to her, she got jealous of other girls talking to me, and me talking to them. When we argued, again, everyday, i would not want to talk about it when it happened because i would b really pissed about the way she was talking to me, and how she would act like i am so disrespectful and i simply was tired of arguing with her all the time and plus, the argument would never get anywhere if were screaming and yelling but she would take my keys if we were at her house, or if we were in the car she would refuse to get out until we "talked" about when screaming and cursing is obviously not talking. She slams my car door, has shut my car off while i have been driving, and attempted to get out the car while i have been driving. She has told me to leave her on the side of the road in a wooded area, i obviously have not because i love and care about her. She has trust issues and told me but after almost 2 years, those need to have been gone. Monday was the last straw for me, i am done with her; but her and her mother have both been constantly calling, texting, leaving me messages, and emailing me. They're using different psychological techniques to either get me back or to get me to talk, i have not replied to any of these, but she came to my french cl and again pleaded begged, and said she would do this that and the other that she has promised before but has not happened, i told her no that i could not do it right now, and i know if i say yea it will be fine for a day or two but then will return back to the same. Also, i just have lost a lot of my attractiveness to her, i have resentful feelings toward her and i just dream of a life without the drama with her. I am not trying to make this sound like all her fault, i have done things, i have hit her, called her every name in the book, and dreamed about cheating on her and everything else terrible, but always have been loyal, and trustworthy, i am deeply saddened by this lost because i do love her, and just wish she would have believed in me. Anyway my question is how do i move on from this? She was my only friend, i do not even know if i would call it that as of now, but how do i move on?
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